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ugh, why? i'm getting out of it and it sounded like the right decision on saturday and i know it's the right thing….but i don't want to do it. i don't want to hurt her. she doesn't see it coming at all. i don't see a future with her. then i found out that she likes me and it looks like she is changing her mind now. they were suppossed to be roomates. crystal said………..shit what do i do? someone, please help me out of this. i guess that i should get out of it with crystal b/c it's wrong to lead her on thinking that i really want a future with her. the longer i wait the more it is going to hurt her. jessica, it's gonna have to wait until crystal is over me…jessica still needs to be interested in me…jessica doesn't need to be going back to mexico…i love jessica…i would give her the world, i pray for her, i can see us getting married, living together..i see my whole future with her. i can picture any situation of us together in detail. this morning when i woke up it felt like jessica was right there next to me. and it sounds like jessica is getting really flakey…she doesn't answer all my phone calls anymore…maybe that's her trying to keep me off of her until crystal gets over it…but i hope that's all it is b/c i've already fallen and hit bottom for jessica. i just hope it's the same way for her. i could almost propose to her right now. that's how much i love her. comments would be great