ugh, why? i'm getting out of it and it sounded like the right decision on saturday and i know it's the right thing….but i don't want to do it. i don't want to hurt her. she doesn't see it coming at all. i don't see a future with her. then i found out that she likes me and it looks like she is changing her mind now. they were suppossed to be roomates. crystal said………..shit what do i do? someone, please help me out of this. i guess that i should get out of it with crystal b/c it's wrong to lead her on thinking that i really want a future with her. the longer i wait the more it is going to hurt her. jessica, it's gonna have to wait until crystal is over me…jessica still needs to be interested in me…jessica doesn't need to be going back to mexico…i love jessica…i would give her the world, i pray for her, i can see us getting married, living together..i see my whole future with her. i can picture any situation of us together in detail. this morning when i woke up it felt like jessica was right there next to me. and it sounds like jessica is getting really flakey…she doesn't answer all my phone calls anymore…maybe that's her trying to keep me off of her until crystal gets over it…but i hope that's all it is b/c i've already fallen and hit bottom for jessica. i just hope it's the same way for her. i could almost propose to her right now. that's how much i love her. comments would be great
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Best Lie
December 22, 2005
Why don’t they understand?
November 18, 2005Why is it that some people have not learned these lessons in life…..It really frustrates me that they don’t. I was going to take my brother to see harry potter at 7:30 today and it was gonna be a great night especially because I was the only one that would hang out with him. My parents are out of town so we are best buds and do everyting together. My friend invited me to go see it with her at that time. So like I said before I wanted him to have a lot of fun. We go and have dinner at Wendy’s (I know thats not huge but who cares where we went. My brother and I were hanging out which we don’t do often). We headed over to Tinsletown and the tickets are sold out. We are already there and its almost time. I didn’t want to let my brother down so I bought two tickets to another movie. They always undersale a movie because they can’t prevent people in seperate parties/families to want to sit at lease a seat apart. So I asked my friend to save me and my brother some seats. …SHE SAID NO!!! wtf. She said “It’s not the right thing to do.� Geez what a friend. You know if I told my brother that we were going to have to go see a different movie than what we were going to see he would have been so disapointed. So without my friends help I went in with my brother and took a seat. We were sitting by ourselves having a blast.
Sometimes the right thing to do is the wrong thing.

Tangent
November 14, 2005If a teacher says that you can come up and ask them for ideas and ask them for help they should do that right.
I went up to Mr.Sipes and told him that I couldn’t think of anything to do for project 2. His response to me was that I could needed to figure it out on my own and that he would not spoon feed me b/c it is a 3000 level course. That’s b/s.
